PEACING IT TOGETHER: an unordinary path
Have you ever felt like there was more than the life you are living?
Sometimes it seems there are many paths to choose from in our journey on earth. Every decision affects those around us near and far at some level. I think that our soul nudges us to experience life more fully while in a body or physical form. And at the same time because we have a knowing that we are more than the body and mind we seek freedom from the mind and body - a return to our true selves. Contradiction? I don’t know -perhaps. How much of a contradiction we become aware of may depend on our level of evolution as a spirit or soul.
As humans we seem to have this built in desire for more - we are ambitious. We can become complacent but that seems to develop perhaps from a series of disappointments or lack of will and vision over long periods of time. I believe we come to earth with an imprint in our hearts- perhaps a destiny to fulfill. I also believe our souls choose the body and experiences that we need to evolve as souls.
From what I’ve read about the soul while we are in the spirit world we choose our parents, partners even whether we will have partners, children etc. I have read: “Many Lives, Many Masters” by Dr. Brian Weiss and “Life between Lives” by Michael Newton. Thanks to my spiritual awakening seven years ago I believe in past lives. We are always growing and evolving. Some of our choices lead us to learn and evolve more rapidly than other choices. Maybe when we choose things that slow down our growth we stray from our destiny.
There are those who seem to stay on the path of least resistance manifesting and living life to its fullest. They seem to experience synchronicities as a result of “being in the flow” or path of least resistance. I experienced being in the flow seven years ago during my spiritual awakening. During my spiritual awakening my senses were heightened and I felt expanded and connected to everything around me. It was a brief and beautiful period of time. I did not stay in that zone but fell back into the chatter of my ego. For a while I tried to meditate longer and to get back to that state of bliss. Finally, I decided that I can have another spiritual awakening by being patient, trusting and continuing practices that increase the chances of reawakening.
By contrast to that beauty I experienced seven years ago my life seems so ordinary. I am yearning to experience the power within me for the good of not only myself but of others. My spirit wants to create and live more fully. I no longer wish to just walk but rather fly. And so I ask myself what makes life extraordinary? I suppose that is a unique answer to each of us.
Sages, artists, enlightened beings and many great poets write, paint and are inspired by and about Love. And I believe God- the Universe is Love.
Recently I attended an all female group meditation and shamanic journey. It was my second shamanic journey- in which I imagined going into the underworld or depths of earth crossing over a large barrier. The rock or boulder was blocking the entrance. I easily moved it and went into a forest. I saw great shades of green and beautiful birds. The sound of water was abundant and invited me to drink it. I imagined sipping the water and feeling refreshed. The air was fresh and cool. There my mind conjured a wolf whose eyes seem to want to penetrate mine. I felt reverence for it as though it were a wise teacher. It didn’t say if it was my power animal. I continued to venture in the beautiful forest.
As I walked - I found myself entering a cave where vibrant colors illuminated the cave and showed me the beauty of its crevices. I felt chillier and calm. While there were beautiful colors like magentas and blues I didn’t feel like being in the dark. I continued on my way following a path that winded down the forest. I heard a bee. I asked if it was my power animal. It did not respond. I moved on.
I came to an area where the water poured down as if I were in a shower surrounded by nature. I went into it and felt cleansed and ready to move on the path. As I walked down a narrow path I came to a sled that was shaped like a leaf. I sat on it and took off down and up into the ocean. I was on an island with a fresh breeze. As I looked around I saw a tiger. It came towards me. I was captivated but also told myself I should perhaps fear it. There on the sand I wondered what these animals meant to me. As I thought of it- I began the journey back. I thought of the tiger as saying I have slumbered enough and that I have the courage to move forward. I thought of the hard working bees and how much effort I will need on my path. Then I was back in the space of other women who had just journeyed as well.
I was able to see and imagine all of this. As I imagined all of this I wondered if others in the room were having more profound experiences. I wondered if they were seeing their power animals not by imagination but by some more spiritual grace. At the end of journey when we shared our experience- a woman said to me that there was no difference between my imagination or my mind choosing those animals. She said your mind chose those animals and not others. They encouraged me to look up the meaning of the animals I saw on my journey. What I found was interesting and most of all hopeful.
The wolf can represent a teacher or inner knowing/intuition. Since I saw the wolf alone and not in a pac it indicates being alone to know self undistracted. As the howl of a wolf it invites me to listen to my inner knowing. Beautifully the wolf also denotes a free spirit. I can relate to that. Wolves can also mean loyalty and stability and are regarded as pathfinders.
The bee represents community, regeneration and wisdom. In my visualization -I heard the bee initially more than- I actually saw it. Perhaps, I am welcoming a community but it has yet to manifest. Bees are also symbols of harmony, joy and good fortune. They teach us to engage in creative endeavors fully with focused intention and single minded purpose.
The tiger represents confidence, devotion, and focus. The tiger is present to the moment so it invites me to clear my mind or act without analysis. Tigers can indicate new adventures on the way and looking at the world in extraordinary ways. They can represent awakening new passion and power in particular feminine powers.
When I piece it all together I see that like wolves I need to balance dependence with independence rather than sacrifice my individuality for family. I am trying to find my path and once I do - I will be loyal. I can see that the time I have spent alone has been to get to know myself better. I will continue to enjoy my time alone as it re-energizes. While I can be an introvert like the wolf I am also social. And like the bee I need a supportive community that allows me to harmonize and share my joy. As an idealist I see how important focused intention and purpose can serve me in my pursuits. It can be easy to stay in the clouds or in my imagination. All of this makes me hopeful as the tiger captivated me with its poise and through its eyes reminded me to be present to the moment. I need this as I can be stuck in my thoughts over thinking and the tiger acts powerfully without analysis. Therefore, I will continue my stillness practice and trust my inner knowing. In addition, I am open to new adventures and seeing my life and the world in more extraordinary ways. And when my destiny is revealed I will be devoted like the tiger.
If nothing else this inner journey, reflection and writing reminds me that I and you are supported by divine guidance. Moment to moment I am aiming for clarity, spontaneity and agility arising from the purest part of me. From there true momentum, ease and grace permeate all I do. It is my hope that I am developing, fine turning and integrating all aspects necessary to thrive. I sincerely desire this not just for my greater good and joy but for everything as we are all interconnected. I’d like to see a world where harmony and love is abundant where suffering is a thing of the mind and not a visible physical reality. I want to to do my part in reaching a higher consciousness and more evolved world.
Am I idealistic for trying to reach something I cannot see? I believe as long as I am at peace and remain at peace that much is possible and not much else matters. I am aware to the pain and suffering of others and not indifferent to it. In the past, I would have been disturbed and concerned with what I could to change or make a difference in the lives of some of those suffering. Now, I feel more trusting of the Universe and mankind. I may not be completely surrendered but I am moving in that direction.
The questions evolve from a place of peace and love. The inquiry is now: How can I love more? Where and when can I open up more to love? How can I embrace every moment with all my heart?
A life lived loving and being at peace may be ordinary but in these chaotic times we are living- it can be extraordinary. I choose peace instead of anxiety and to love rather than hate. The more peace I experience the deeper my breathing and every breath is life. I receive and release with little effort. It is a graceful inner knowing. In that there is stillness and beauty. The quiet whisper said to me “the answers emerge in time.” To know that we are Love -that is peace.
So how are you peacing your life together?