What is alive for me now?
I’m divided- within.
A part of me makes strides in a positive direction and another stifles it.
I have yet to live my fullest potential and highest destiny.
Letting go is a process... requiring integrity and commitment.
I envision a future where great strides in health care, politics, and empowered sustenance have been forged. So we live harmoniously and heart- centered businesses are the norm. Perhaps we will all be able to eat almost anything we desire because it is love based.
I’m a little surprised by the turn in my health. I had planned on posting something on “happiness,” as it is how I have been feeling for the most part.
In my own way, I am smiling in gratitude for my body expressing itself to me. I know I can temporarily get myself to be in better health but unless I get to the core...I will continue relapsing.
In Eastern medicine more so than in western- practitioners see the emotions as an integral and inseparable part of the internal organs.
From that perspective, unfelt feelings or feelings we suppress or resist will lodge in the tissues/body and lead to pain, sickness, ailments or disease.
Initially, I felt disappointed as I thought I had been doing a lot of inner work. Then, I remembered that anything we truly value requires commitment.
Healing takes time.
There is no shortcut to experiencing emotions we rather not feel.
So we have to be patient with ourselves and our path.
Self-sabotage is an unconscious inner aspect within us. Others may reflect our shadow back to us but-- it is in us.
My lack of vitality, health, and other areas in my life are letting me know I’m needing to hear these inner aspects.
While I often feel serenity and know I can return to this state even after experiencing challenging emotions-it can be seductive to want to remain only with the more positive uplifting feelings. Our shadow or darkness comes to share gifts. Being spiritual does not mean we rarely experience negative emotions as we are also human.
Emotions are neither good nor bad rather they offer a gift, lesson and even the medicine, or antidote to our wounded selves…
I am working on being more practical and grounded as I’m prone to being in the clouds.
Prone to fantasize about my life like the character played by Ben Stiller in the film “The Secret Life of Walter Mitty.
I’m committing to uncovering patterns, and parts of myself that have sabotaged my dreams, kept me being unrealistic and from forging ahead.
When we are out of integrity in some way the wisdom of the Universe is always there showing us what we had not seen or realized.
Tis the season to be jolly and I am as my commitment to all of me has been upped. I’m just not jolly all the time; I would be disingenuous and out of integrity...
Is there an area in your life in which you are out of integrity?
Are you committed to your highest destiny potential?
P.S. My posts will likely be shorter from here on to make time for my intimate journaling...