From where do you draw strength and serenity?
Is there a place where you are “you,” no matter what?
When do you feel grounded and free to fly?
Do you know what the driving force in your life is?
I find serenity, strength, love and the ability to be myself in my heart.
What about making my goals a reality- does my mind know best?
My mind proposes to get me to my goals and dreams or from here to there (a future not yet here) with the least pain and in the most productive manner.
Even when it seems I am moving in the direction of my goals and dreams my mind keeps me so frantically busy I go nowhere. Instead, I feel tense, heavy, drained, and unfulfilled. I find myself guarded and feeling blocked from the love within and around me.
Habituated to avoid pain my mind offers great escapes or distractions that keep me busy but absent to enjoy my life in the present.
In my heart, I may not know what the future holds, but I find myself feeling light, peaceful, alive, with purpose and space to be.
I am at my best in my heart.
My heart is in my body.
I close my eyes and there in my heart is wisdom.
It is through my body that my soul experiences love including love as pleasure. Pleasure in loving, pleasure in living and being loved.
Much of my life has been lived avoiding pain and trying to control how I get to my dreams and goals. Yet, what I've most deeply desired is to love freely and thus feel alive in love.
As I go deeper into my experience of the avoidance of pain, I find that there is more suffering in relying on my mind than in just feeling what arises. My mind interprets present challenges as real threats. To avoid threats I expend great effort or energy and end up feeling tired even exhausted.
Each time my mind perceives threats it replays painful chapters of my life that I have failed to grasp. The Universe seems to replay unlearned lessons.
How will I learn my lessons? I cannot learn when I am too anxious.
It is when I can sit with what is and allow any discomfort to just be that I find stillness.
A more forgiving and grateful me emerges. And if judgment comes up, I’m beginning to more consistently thank and love that too.
Wanting to know every possible detail involved in fulfilling my desires is not saavy planning but controlling. Planning is smart but only if I am detached from the outcome.
Laughing... I see how my mind believes it has control over the outcomes of my desires. Yet, the truth is the outcomes of our desires are the Divine's territory. Resistance to this is an ultimate ego trip.
Love flows from the heart. To resist is to go against the flow of the Universe or Divine. Resistance prevents me from seeing the love in what is- within and around. So as I allow myself to live more from my heart, I feel the calling of my soul. My soul desiring to be of greater service to humanity.
My hope is that my inquiry allows you to drop into your heart and truth as well.
That said, in the past months, I have shared what has been alive for me. I have shared about my romances more than my need and desire to live my truth.
I have been distracting myself in various ways from fulfilling my calling. I am grateful to those who have come into my life to help me see what I have so suitably chosen not to see...
I ask me and you: What do I love to do? What makes me come alive? What is the driving force in my calling...?
My guidance reminds me that to do what we love, requires loving ourselves deeply. And as we do what we love, we see the world around us change.
Feeling deeply rooted in my heart... I smile wide and realize I’ve known for some time what I want. Most of all, I know my driving force is love. And love it makes us unstoppable!
I will share soon enough about my passions, calling and surrendering the outcome.
For now, I remind myself and you to breathe deep and let go of controlling the adventure.
I hold space for what is and what may be….
Do you know how to connect with your heart?
What is your heart's mercy?
Thank you dear Leah, Darwin, Wendy, Jason, Vishnu and all my heart friends.