Is there a price to pay for getting what we want?
What price are you willing to pay for getting what you want?
Is what we desire truly worth our time and efforts?
Can something we want, ever be detrimental to us?
And do our desires ever fully satisfy us?
My desires have not fulfilled my deeper needs because they cannot even touch the surface of my being.
Striving to fulfill my desires has delayed my soul mission or truth of my being.
The price I have paid is missed opportunities in career as well as other areas of my life. Giving into my desire seems to have given me a false sense of power. The heaviness of my heart was telling me that it was not true power.
I had not looked deep into my soul to remember my soul's desires.
Desires will change and satisfaction in them is temporary.
Sometimes our desires may satisfy us for quite some time until, our mind comes up with new desires.
True fulfillment can only arise from deep within.
Living aligned within our heart and from the depth of our being we radiate true peace and joy.
Our true peace and joy bring to us our deepest desires.
Now, I understand why Jesus Christ said “ Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness, and all good things shall be added unto you.” And where is the kingdom of God? It is within.
I admit that I have sought connection to Spirit or God outside of myself in the last few years. Inside myself there has been so much pain, that I did not want to be in my own body. The sea or river of serenity is always within me, yet it has been easy to get caught up in the loud voices of my thoughts.
Clarity is so important.
I cleverly fooled myself, that I was releasing the outcome of my desires. By virtue of it being a desire, that was not arising from my heart, I was ultimately rebelling against myself.
I can see that giving into my desires led me to lose trust in myself. I have been overriding my heart’s truth. I was not really looking deeper into my being.
I’ve been praying without listening to the still voice of my heart. I’ve been inconsistent with sitting with any discomfort that arises during meditation. My desire to mostly experience good feelings has led me to feel disappointed, dissatisfied and to experience pain or suffering.
Being human means I will experience a range of feelings and thoughts. My resistance to my humanity led to my secret desire to leave the earth plane. So as master and creator of my reality, I see how I ended up in deep sleep at the ICU last month.
With greater awareness, I am empowered to move past desires or temptations of my personas and into the beautiful truth of my being.
Having spent time in and out of consciousness at the hospital, I can say that gratitude for simplicity is key to being content with what is.
To move to a higher vibration means to delve deeper into our being.
It is why I have shared this self-inquiry here with you.
The greater truth, is that perhaps, sometimes we take our dreams or soul missions too seriously.
Can we lighten up and enjoy where we are?
Or is the final destination a better desire?
I rather “be,” a loving presence, than to be rushing around chasing my dreams or mission.
‘Doing” can be overrated, if we are not fully present to enjoy the simplicities of life moment by moment.
You decide what makes you feel alive, happy, and at peace.
Would you rather have short-lived pleasure or to experience true joy- even bliss?