(Blog post dated October 29th)
Can I be real when the truth shows up?
What is ultimately Real for me is LOVE.
The Truth is Love.
Love is what matters most.
Love is the ultimate power.
Love is everything!
This Love is not love outside of myself, although that is a blessing when it manifests.
And Love manifests Love.
This Love is simple and stands anchored in itself.
This Love is undefinable and freeing.
This LOVE is Oneness.
Oneness is Divine Love.
Divine Love I also refer to as Spirit, God, Universe, Consciousness, or just "LOVE."
How much do I want this Truth or Reality?
I sincerely am willing to let go of anything that would keep me from the discovery, experience and absolute envelopment and embodiment of Divine Love.
What I imagine and what the Truth actually is may be totally and completely different.
What are my ideas of what the Truth is?
I imagine the Truth being liberating.
I imagine the Truth being heaven on earth.
I imagine the ultimate destination of all paths being the Truth.
Before going to the desert, I imagined that liberation meant abiding in a consistent state of peace.
A state of peace to me represents: liberation.
It is one the reasons why I went to the desert, I wanted to have a breakthrough.
I know peace is real because I experience it. I am not in a peaceful state all the time.
Peace feels good.
Who doesn’t want to feel good, right?
Serenity feels wonderful even magical from my experience. It is what I experienced for a little while since my time in the desert. It is a state of being that I would very much like to abide in more consistently.
I am grateful that I don't consistently feel great because if I did my commitment to embodying the Truth or liberation would not be strong.
Wanting to only feel peace is like having a really good dream and only wanting to have that dream every night.
Wanting to only feel great can be like watching a really good movie and only wanting to watch that movie.
I’m human so maybe liberation does not mean abiding in a consistent state of peace.
I don’t know what ultimate liberation feels like. I am open to discovering it through my unique experience.
The reality is that everyday is different. Each moment is different.
Each moment is filled with a certain uncertainty.
I’m learning that it is not so hard to be grateful when it feels challenging. Why?
I have a choice to perceive the gifts within the challenges.
It is those days when I feel least good, that I am humbled and reminded of my humanity.
I am a spiritual being, but, I am also human.
Human means I experience a range of experiences. There are 'ups' and 'downs.'
It is a journey to be fully experienced.
I’m on a journey like everyone else.
I believe we all have different paths leading ultimately to the same destination.
I am willing to be flexible about everything including my beliefs about liberation….
For now, I am on a path of surrender as a way to experience liberation.
What beliefs, patterns, concepts....have you let go of to be more free?
How much have you wanted something that you were willing to give up everything for it?
And was it worth it?
Would it be worth it?
How real are you really willing to be in the face of Truth?
I dare you...