I wanted to say so much.
I kept so much to myself.
I denied myself to others.
Others could not understand me.
A muddled voice?
How could they see me if I was not revealing myself.
How could they know me when I was not vulnerable.
Without knowing the real me, they would leave....
Without emotional integrity, they saw me as only sensitive to myself.
No peace or contentment without congruency of my being.
Yet, expressing little to avoid criticism....
Seeking approval and acceptance that never filled me long enough.
Unaccepting of myself!?!
Tossed by currents of incessant thoughts and emotional uncertainty...
I was a muddled voice...
lost in an uncrowded stage of unconformity.
Afraid to be me?!
tolerance gave out.
I was no longer willing to tolerate being invisible!
I uncensored my thoughts and took a risk to be judged.
Risked being seen and heard.
Realized that what mattered was accepting myself.
Acceptance of myself a most precious gift of Love.
I took a risk to be me.
Loving myself as is, opened me up to love others as they are.
Never unfelt voice!
Dedicated to the beautiful unheard hearts.